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You made a fool of me, but them broken dreams have got to end.
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Jan. 5th, 2006 @ 02:44 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: crushedcrushed
I am alive if you were wondering.
I've had the best 3 weeks of my life.
Josh and I did get married on December 27, 2005
He had to go back to Korea today.
You have no idea how much I miss him. Or how much I want to jump on a plane and leave here. I don't belong here.
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Dec. 26th, 2005 @ 12:57 pm :D
Current Mood: excitedexcited
24 hours.

I've never been happier.

Love you guys :)
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Dec. 25th, 2005 @ 12:42 am (no subject)
Current Mood: calmcalm
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Dec. 19th, 2005 @ 03:37 pm <3
Current Mood: excitedexcited
In one week, I will be Mrs. Sargeant Joshua Mathew Balduck.

Just wow.

I have to post a picture we had taken together the other night at the HCA Christmas party.

He is so sexy.
Even my friends were like, "DAMN!"

What can I say, we're just soulmates :D
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Dec. 18th, 2005 @ 03:20 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: indescribableindescribable
I smell like Josh.

I am in Heaven.
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Dec. 16th, 2005 @ 07:13 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: anxiousanxious
Ok Josh just call me. And I'm GONE. I'm so anxious!
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Dec. 16th, 2005 @ 01:45 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: chipperchipper
Oh and btw, I'm gonna run poor Josh dry when he gets in tonight and tomorrow night, because tonight we're going to a party, tomorrow night we're going to a party, and Sunday his mom wants us to come to a cantana at her church...except I have no idea what a cantana is.

And next week I'll be doing Christmas stuff...and packing.

But I'm done with school!!! For 3 weeks...
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Dec. 16th, 2005 @ 01:26 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: confusedconfused
Ok so today my family is calm and collective and talking on normal terms. Just wtf.


But atleast they're calm.
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Dec. 15th, 2005 @ 09:57 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: pissed offpissed off
Forget what I said about my mom...she's nuckin futs...and I can't handle this right now. I almost cried in the car, because I really realized that my mother and I don't and will never have that close mother daughter bond, and what's worse is because she seems to always want to make me miserable, or as tonight went, tell me I'm selfish and that I don't care about anyone, and on top of that now she has my grandmother crying, I'm sorry, but I hate her. She has no control over me and she hates it, and so in return, apparently I'm ruining her life. And you know what, fuck her. It's not about her, this is me...me and my life with my husband, and if she doesn't like it because SHE wants to have everyone there, it's not my problem. I don't. Not now. And I'm starting to think, not ever. And if we do do something with friends and family in the future, she better not make it about her.

My life is not about pleasing my mother. She needs to get over it, and now.
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Dec. 15th, 2005 @ 06:02 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: indescribableindescribable
So what's another 24+ hours? *sigh*

I'm gonna be Sean when he's drunk: "FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKK"
I can't do it as good as him though.

So, just to let everyone know, the cats out of the bag, my mom found out, turns out my dad knew, granted he's dealing way better than my mom, who surprisingly is not only very calm, but rational and supportive, but it's not what she wants...granted this isn't about what she wants...but it's too late now.

I can not be more thankful that I have had the most supportive and wonderful friends ever. Today meant so much to me. The three musketeers has more become the four recently. And Ken and I today just had a ball at the Christmas party. We formed an ornament alliance. You really had to be there.

But anyways, my parents I'm hoping haven't gone and told everyone. I know my mom might have mentioned something to Josh's mom on the phone last night. I'm glad they like eachother and all, but it really wasn't her right to say anything. It's mine and Josh's.

I really wish he were back, or atleast he would call. These days are just getting long. I still have now two exams tomorrow morning. I missed todays. My parents wouldn't let me go to school....because of the weather....again.

I can't wait to show Josh our gifts though. Kelly and Kim went all out. And for some reason I just couldn't put down this picture frame they bought that had this beautiful picture of the both of us. He's so gorgeous.

All I can say is thanks you guys for being so supportive and wonderful. I couldn't have asked for better people in my life.
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